Ten Things of Thankful, Week 46/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 46/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • It was another week in which I managed to stay on course, taking care of my pack and the chores, so my brain can process the new routines.
  • My parents had their 48th wedding anniversary. I am happy for them, of course, but they also are very good role models for me. They always made clear that a marriage has to be taken seriously, and that you have to deal with the bad times as well. This made me the dedicated wife I am.
  • My husband and me had a wonderful date night at a chinese restaurant. It’s important to have these moments together.
  • Helped a friend from the shelter putting on winter tires on her car. I like helping others when I can. It makes me happy as well.
  • Had a good appointment with my psychiatrist. She told me I am doing well, and that I have to give myself more time. This was good to hear.
  • Arranged a meeting with another friend, we will bake together later in the month. It will be good to see her again, and I am sure we will have fun baking together (we did this before, and it always was a success!).
  • It’s getting cold. I am very thankful for my warm winter clothes, and that I was able to buy what I needed.
  • Even though it is November, the weather was still mostly sunny and I was able to enjoy the good weather while walking the dogs. It helped me to keep depression at bay.
  • After taking the dogs for a long walk yesterday, my husband and I ate in a greek fast food restaurant, so I didn’t have to cook. That was nice for a change.
  • Friday was a challenging day for me. My husband left in the morning for work and didn’t return until late in the evening. I looked after the dogs, walk them twice and feed them in the evening. My husband was very glad he could rely on me again. This was good for both of us.
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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 45/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 45/2018

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Another week in which I managed to get chores done, walked the dogs and kept a good balance between work and rest. I am still not completely used to this new lifestyle, but this was another good week that should help me getting there in the long run.
  • I had to deal with my first real setback. I still feel the aftershocks and there is still room for improvement as my crisis management is concerned, but I dealt with it and avoided collateral damage.
  • Once again I recognized I am not alone in this fight, and that I have lots of support.
  • Started with my single OT-sessions again. I enjoy having group therapy as well, but this hour is just for me, and this helps to calm me down.
  • Our dishwater didn’t complete its washing cycle anymore, because the dirty water stayed in the machine. Good thing my husband, who repairs bigger machines at work, was able to fix it (a pump was blocked by dirt). So we saved lots of money.
  • My husband and me agreed it was time to have another “date night”. We decided on eating at a chinese restaurant Wednesday evening. It’s something special, because both of us can’t cook chinese, so we don’t have chinese food very often.
  • For the last time this year, we enjoyed ice cream and coffee after our Saturday “shelter walk”. The cafe is closing for a long winter holiday and will re-open in March. That’s sad, but we really became friendly with the staff and are looking to seeing them again in spring.
  • We also agreed that we will go to a greek fast food restaurant on Saturdays during the cold months after walking the dogs – it’s so good to have quality time with my husband.
  • So far I managed to keep my weight I had when I left the hospital (I had lost 5 kg during my time on the ward). Well, having two canine personal trainers definitely helps with that.
  • Even though it is November, I still managed to catch some sunlight. This makes me feel so much better, body and soul.

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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 44/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 44/2018

  • This was another week in which I managed to find a good mix between chores, exercise and relaxation. I am thankful I had enough energy and self discipline.
  • My pack was happy because it felt cared for by me, and that made me happy as well. Win-win!
  • Talked to my mother on the phone and told her I sometimes still struggle with this new life. My mother works with mentally ill people herself and knew what I was talking about. She said: “You think this is hard, because IT IS HARD. No therapy can prepare you for this. But I think you’re doing great.” That was exactly what I needed to hear.
  • Met with my best friend for thirty years after a long time, and it was like we spoke just yesterday. I am very thankful for this strong bond between us.
  • Talked to my therapist for the first time since my hospital stay. He reassured me I am doing well and that things will become easier. His advice was to keep on doing what I am doing, and to remember that slow and steady wins the race. It was good to hear this.
  • Had some quality time with my husband. This makes us both feel validated and loved.
  • Met a woman who was in group OT with me and I haven’t seen in months. She said I was looking good. She has seen me at my worst, so this was a nice compliment.
  • Had a small setback, which made me feel very sad and worthless. But the good thing is, it only lasted a few hours. I can live with that. 
  • The shelter dog we take with us for a walk every Saturday has not one, but two nice potential candidates who want to adopt him. Both of them wanted to meet us and talk to us, because we know Truman. We appreciate their efforts and of course are very willing to help.
  • My OT therapist told me I can resume with my single OT sessions next week. I am looking forward to this!
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 43/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 43/2018

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • I managed to get up at a reasonable time every morning. Ok, two times I was close to saying “who cares”, but I was able to convince myself it is better to get going. And I was very grateful I did!
  • I walked our dogs every day and got plenty of exercise. And I start to notice the walking becomes easier every day. Our daily walks also form a bond between and our dogs, that is an added bonus.
  • Every day I managed to do one hour of chores. I know my back will hurt, no matter what I do or don’t do, but having accomplished something gives me a better feeling. The household isn’t spotless, but clean enough we can invite friends in. That’s enough for now.
  • Every day I served my husband a self-cooked meal. In Germany we have this saying, love goes through the stomach”. This is true for my husband, he appreciates it very much and it makes him feel cared for. It is healthy as well, so I call it win-win.
  • On Saturday, after walking with our “shelter pack”, we had ice cream together, just my husband and me (ok, and the dogs, but they were very well behaved… or tired). I try to have more quality time with him. It feels almost strange, because we didn’t have much of this in the last year. But it surely is nice as well.
  • My mood still is relatively stable. Sometimes I feel sad and shed a few tears, but this is never for long and doesn’t really keep me from doing important things. I can live with this. It’s a far cry from how I felt before my hospital stay.
  • Much of my time I spend caring for others, but I also managed to have my blood sugar tested. Nothing changed, so I can forget about this until next year.
  • I decorated our living room with pumpkins and candles. The dark months may not be so good for my mood, but I like to put  up many candles!
  • My mother made it official in a talk with her superior that she will finally retire next September. She likes her work very much, but now it’s time to spend more time with my father, who is eight years older. I am very relieved its out now!
  • I still get lots of support, online and offline. That makes me thankful, but it also motivates me to go on with my recovery.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 42/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 42/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Yesterday we took our usual walk with our dogs and a dog from the shelter. We were joined by a woman who wants to adopt Truman, and she really wanted to know what we had to say, who know Truman for a longer time. We have a good feeling about this woman, because she doesn’t just want to adopt a dog, she wants to know as many things about Truman as possible.
  • The weather yesterday was nice, and we went to have ice cream after walking the dogs. It was so good.
  • Overall my mood was okay. When I become aware of my mood going down, I try to do something about this immediately. It’s still a lot of try and error, but everything is better than just waiting and doing nothing.
  • I managed to keep a relatively clean house, something I wasn’t able to do before my last inpatient stay. There’s still room for improvement, but it’s okay for now. My husband came back from his fishing trip, and the first thing he said was: “It smells nice in here.”
  • Taking over responsibility again for everything in the house felt good. It is no longer a burden, I like it.
  • I had some serious talks with my husband about situations I need his help with. There are things I can’t do alone. He was very surprised, but offered to help me. It was very difficult for me to admit I need help, but I think honesty is vital in a marriage.
  • I still am amazed how many coping techniques I learned in therapy. When I went in the hospital, everything overwhelmed me and I didn’t know what to do. I am so much calmer now and quick in finding solutions.
  • Met with my father on Wednesday, and we had a good time, talking about everything and nothing. I am very thankful he is in good health and enjoying life.
  • I fell in love with music – again. And this is so much fun!
  • Talked to my mother today on the phone, and it made us both feel better and loved. We can’t meet in person as often as we would like to, but sometimes a call makes all the difference.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 41/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 41/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • I got home finally on Thursday after eight weeks of inpatient treatment. Even though this feels strange, I am very sure more therapy wouldn’t have helped me more. Good timing, I think.
  • Therapy has not always been easy, but I feel well prepared for life and like how my mind feels right now.
  • Our dogs greeted me very warmly after seeing me rather sporadically for two months. It may have helped I brought treats, of course😀. But it’s good they didn’t forget me. It’s so difficult to explain to animals a human has to leave for weeks.
  • Our cat also quickly got used to me being home again – one human more to boss around, but she also has been very cuddly since then.
  • My husband and I celebrated my homecoming with a very nice evening at a Thai restaurant. These times were it’s just the two of us doing something nice definitely have to happen more often. And I have many good ideas!
  • My husband was finally able to go on a long fishing trip. He wanted to this in summer, but couldn’t go because I went to the hospital. I am glad the weather is still nice and hope he enjoys it very much.
  • I took a long walk today. The weather was sunny and warm, and it relaxed me so much.
  • While walking, I met several people doing the same. Everybody was in a very good mood, we all smiled at each other. This is rare in Germany😁.
  • Now that I am home I am free to choose what I eat… Believe me, eight weeks of bland hospital food made me long for fresh fruit and salad! How are you supposed to get healthy when all you eat is processed food?
  • At first I was afraid leaving the secure environment the hospital created would leave me feeling insecure and afraid, but I was lucky and adapted very quickly.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 40/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 40/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • I had my last weekend-visit at home! I will be released on Thursday, it’s good to go home again, finally! Eight weeks are a long time.
  • My mental health improved a lot during therapy. I didn’t expect this excellent outcome at the beginning.
  • I was alone for the most time this weekend (well, of course our cat was with me), because my husband celebrated his mother’s birthday. Everybody was so supportive and understood this would have been too much for me after a hard week of inpatient therapy.
  • And I didn’t freak out about being alone after always being around other people for the last eight weeks. I handled this really well. Like I said, therapy worked well for me.
  • I was offered to come back to the hospital again, if serious problems occur again. I am very glad to have this possibility, even though I hope I won’t need it.
  • The windows at home were cleaned last week. This helps me a lot.
  • I found new ways to deal with my pain, and it is still manageable. This was another important step, and I noticed opiates make me feel tired and don’t help with my depression. That’s good to know.
  • I am very certain this mental health crisis is finally over. That’s good, because it lasted almost a year. I am very aware of the fact that it probably wasn’t the last time I will have to deal with depression. But for now, hey, I will enjoy life as long as possible.
  • I started planning ahead for my time after therapy, and this felt good. I am so ready to go home!
  • I was able to help other patients who are struggling. It shows me again how far I have come in the eight weeks.