Thankful Thursday #45

Thankful Thursday #45

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today I am thankful that our vacuum cleaner broke down within the guarantee period. It’s always annoying when this happens, but at least we now get a refund. If this would have happened four months later, we would have been out of luck. One more reason to be thankful for 😉.

Have a wonderful day!

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Feline Friday #86| Friendly Fill-Ins

Feline Friday #86| Friendly Fill-Ins

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It’s time for Feline Friday, hosted by Sandee from Comedy Plus!

Jackie enjoys her life so much right now. We rarely see her, she spends most of the time outside in the garden. I would like to have more time with her, but we also want her to be happy. I am willing to step back if that means Jackie’s life is better. She is not “just a cat” to us, she is a member of the family.

Time spent together is so precious. This photo was made a few days ago, when Jackie decided she wanted to have a little extra girl time in the morning. I had nowhere to be, so we had an impromptu snuggle session. Both of us enjoyed every minute of it.

Our furbabies really teach us to live in the moment, and I am grateful for that. I really need to be reminded of this quite often!

Friendly Fill-Ins

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-LeggedFurballs and 15andmeowing. So here we go:

1. June is a good month to be outside. It’s not too hot, but it’s clearly summer. A wonderful time for long walks with the dogs!
2. I love to play Forge of Empire at the moment. It has been a long time since I enjoyed a computer game so much. My husband plays it too, and we are having a blast!
3. I’m not ashamed to admit that I always had a very tender heart. This causes pain, but it also makes me feel so much love.
4. I’d rather not get into a situation where I am forced to give one of our furbabies away. I know I make mistakes, but I love them so much.
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Thankful Thursday #44

Thankful Thursday #44

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Between Corona, helping our friend and working in the garden, there also was my Birthday. Celebrating is a little bit different this year because of Corona, but I think we figured it out – instead of having one big party, we had (and will be having) several smaller get togethers, and so far this worked for everybody 😃. This is one thing I am very thankful for: so much time spend with wonderful people (and furbabies, of course).

I am also very thankful for all the good things that happened between my last birthday and this one. It was hard work, but I had lots of help, and so many things got better. It was a year of growth and understanding, and I hope this will help me in the future.

Have a wonderful day, wherever you are!

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Too much of a good thing

Too much of a good thing

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One thing I try to live by is a quote from Erich Kästner “Nothing good happens unless you do it”. If I can, I like to help. But when I promised a friend to walk her dog while she recovered from a minor surgery on her toe, I had bitten off more than I could chew – and it was just a week.

One aspect was the time I spent driving between our homes and walking the dog. But  being responsible for a pet I don’t really know was the hardest thing for me. I shouldn’t have worried, our friend’s dog is a wonderful granny (about the same age as our Janet) and much more easier to handle as our Sam for example. When walking her I always felt tense and wasn’t able to enjoy it. The dog on the other side had fun and was absolutely relaxed. Everything went well, but I wouldn’t have been able to forgive myself if something had happened.

At the same time my husband was on holiday, we had to do work in the garden and put away the wood for the winter. I wanted to please and help everybody and put myself last. This happens often to me. Panic attacs started to bother me, and after the week I just felt tired and like a failure, because I thought everybody but me can handle such a situation without breaking a sweat.

Luckily this stressful time was too short to cause real damage. I recover slowly. But I should really take this seriously and learn to take better care of myself. I still fall into traps I could avoid. That made me think. But this time I got off easy.

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Thankful Thursday #43

Thankful Thursday #43

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today I am very thankful I found ways to cope with this “new normal”. Of course Corona didn’t disappear magically and I am still afraid, but I am living again. That’s a lot!

I am also thankful for all the people who support me during this time, on- and offline. Surely life is difficult for all of us now, but they take the time to help me. I was able to help others as well, and for that I am grateful too.

I hope all of you are healthy and well. These are strange times, but we are not alone.

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Speechless

Speechless

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I’m rarely at a loss for words, but this chaos around the Coronavirus is too much right now. I continue to read your blogs, but commenting or writing is difficult for me.

I just can’t break this vicious circle of disturbing thoughts in my head.

Someday, Corona will affect somebody from our family, or friends… Who will fall ill, and how bad will it get? How long will Corona be part of our lives, and what will all of us have to sacrifice?

I know it would be good if I could stop my thoughts going round in circles, but it’s not that easy. Although my therapists are doing what they can, more than video calls isn’t possible right now. Maybe this trying time is even harder for those of us who are already dealing with mental problems. It’s not that I feel overly anxious, but the depression is really weighing me down. When the alarm goes off in the morning, I feel already tired. I have strange dreams (I take notes, because my therapist asks about them during our sessions). I can’t keep up with the chores, but I continue to look after my husband and the furbabies.

A few days ago, we brought toilet paper to our parents. We just left it at the doorstep and kept a distance. My mother had tears in her eyes because we couldn’t hug, and my heart broke for her. Modern technologies allow us to stay in touch, but watching each other on a screen is not the same than meeting in person.

Stay strong and healthy!

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Thankful Thursday #42

Thankful Thursday #42

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today I am thankful for the technical possibilities that allow us to stay in touch with all our loved ones even when we have to stay apart physically.

It is sometimes hard for me to practice social distancing, because it is very unlike me. I am no social butterfly either, but I love to meet family and friends. And working with my therapists helps me so much.

But I am still able to be close to the important people in my life. My therapists offer video calls, and messaging apps, mails and the old-fashioned telephone calls bridge the gap between myself and family and friends. We don’t know how long we will have to keep this up, but we can still be together in this: For this I am very thankful today. And also for everyone of you in Blogville ❤. We will get through this together.

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Feline Friday #85| Friendly Fill-Ins

Feline Friday #85| Friendly Fill-Ins

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It’s time for Feline Friday, hosted by Sandee from Comedy Plus!

Jackie had a really bad day this Wednesday. We knew something was wrong when she followed us everywhere, even in the bathroom. Later we saw she had thrown up, and this rarely happens. Usually she can eat everything.

When her mother was her age, she suddenly got a bad case of food intolerance, so we are worried this happens to Jackie as well.

But everything was alright the next day. We will watch her, of course, but maybe it was just a one time thing.

Friendly Fill-Ins

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-LeggedFurballs and 15andmeowing. So here we go:

1. My favorite outdoor activity is walking with my husband and the dogs.
2. One positive aspect of social isolation is that I became aware of the fact how wonderful our family and friends are, and that I miss them very much. I hope I will never take them for granted again.
3. It’s fortunate that there still are so many nice things I can do, and that this social isolation thing won’t go on forever.
4. I have so many animal companions of my past memorized. I hope I will never forget them!
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Thankful Thursday #41

Thankful Thursday #41

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today my OT therapist called me. She knows I have video calls with our group therapist, and she offered me to have video calls with her as well. She encouraged me to get creative and start a new project, so we can talk about it and she can guide me through it during our calls.

I like this idea a lot. A new project will help me getting distracted from this Corona mess. And I always like talking to her, she often helps me see things in a different way.

So today I am thankful for my therapists, who try everything to help their clients through this difficult time and stay at our sides.

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Therapy 2.0

Therapy 2.0

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Because of the Corona-situation, group therapy has been cancelled until further notice. Our therapist offers single video calls to keep in touch. At first I didn’t feel comfortable with it, would I be able to get it right?

Turned out there was nothing to worry about. It’s quite simple, you just need a PC/notebook/tablet/smartphone with camera and microphone. I logged in and waited in a virtual waiting room until my therapist started the session.

Our therapist has lots of experience with video calls and was very confident and cool, and I just needed to follow his lead. Soon it was like we really were sitting in a room together.

He asked if I ever had buried my disere to have children in a symbolic way (no, I didn’t). He asked what the child’s name would have been (our favorite name for a girl was Amanda: Starts with an A like my husband’s name and is latin, like my name). We quickly came up with the idea to bury a pacifier chain with this name. I am not ready for this yet, but I like this, despite all the pain. My therapist encouraged me to wait until the time is right and not to rush it. But I can’t get this out of my head, and I am sure I will follow through with it.

The video call lasted 50 minutes, like a normal single therapy session. After that I had enough to think about. Wednesday afternoon we will have our next video call. This time I know what it will be like and will be more relaxed.

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