Something different

Something different

Today we started OT with a round of progressive muscle relaxation. After that, we had coffee and sweets and discussed what we will do next.

We didn’t do anything creative today, but nobody wanted to leave. We are a wonderful group, we just connect to each other. 

It looks like the relaxation group can start in three or four weeks, so everything goes according to plan.

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The demon perfectionism

The demon perfectionism

Aside from the demon self-hatred, the demon called perfectionism bothers me the most.

An example is the picture above, I finished it today in OT-group. Most of the group members like it, I only see many little flaws and hate it.

The picture will go to another participant of the group, I wouldn’t have taken it home, I would have thrown it away immedeately.

I have been working on my perfectionism issues for quite a long time, but this demon is really hard to beat.

Silk painting

Silk painting

Well, I may not be the greatest silk painting artist, but I am fascinated by circles. We will see how it looks when it is finished. It is a pillow, 40×40 cm.

What I noticed recently: In our OT group are three people that suffered from cancer at a relatively young age. We are talking about brain tumor, cancer of the small intestine and my melanoma.

It is understandable that suffering from cancer is something difficult to cope with. But we all agree on the fact that there is very little support for middle-aged cancer survivors. Depression or anxiety that may follow cancer can be treated, of course. But this is where it stops.

Things may get very difficult where work is concerned. The employment center scratches its head and offers Job Application Training. I had to go through this myself and now what I am talking about. Those who can’t go on with their work like before, but are too “fit” to file for disability, are affected worst.

But this is just more point in which I want our society to be more compassionate and understanding. Everyone can become an cancer patient one day.

When one thing leads to another

When one thing leads to another

This is what I am currently working on in our group OT-sessions. The outlines of the flowers where already printed on the canvas, but it is a lot of fine work and takes a lot of concentration. It also takes longer than I thought.

My single OT sessions will come to an end in the next weeks. So it’s a good thing that our therapist had some training last week, and wants to start  relaxation group therapy. Her goal is to provide her clients with exercises they can use in their everyday life.

That’s exactly my problem. During my therapies I was taught lots of good exercises, but most of them couldn’t be done in public in stressful situations. So this could really help me. We will see if enough clients want to come, so a group can be formed.

Anyway, it is a good thing when something new comes my way.

Where OT can help me – and where not

Where OT can help me – and where not

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After getting this GDPR thing out of the way, I can finally blog again 😉

More than thirty sessions of OT are behind me, single and in group. The single sessions are limited to forty, after that the therapy can only be continued after a special evaluation by the health insurance. Group therapy can continue for a longer time.

 

Where OT helps me:

  • It brings structure in my life. I take this appointments seriously, just don’t feeling like it is no reason to cancel. I only cancelled once, when I couldn’t wear my hearing aid.
  • Now and then it’s a good thing to meet people for other reasons that doing the groceries. And my therapist is great, she made me realize so many things – OT compliments my DBT wonderfully. And I met very nice people in group.
  • It’s nice to craft something. I may never be ready with my chores, but in OT I create something. Even if I don’t like it in the end.

Where OT can’t help me:

  • It didn’t make my depression better in the long term. But it makes me feel better at least for a few hours.
  • I can’t take the elan from the sessions into my everyday life. It tires me out too much.

This list is of course just my personal opinion. But the positive effects can’t be denied. But I take what I can get.

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Occupational Therapy, Part 5

Occupational Therapy, Part 5

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Today was my 31st single OT session. My therapist suggested to try something creative again after all the cooking, and we agreed on silk painting a pillowcase.

She would have liked if I tried something “freestyle”, but I didn’t like that idea. I make my own templates (the pencil drawings on the silk on the picture above), but I don’t want to draw without a plan. I tried my whole life to stay within lines, I just can’t let got of that 🙂

She advised me not to use a drawing compass for the circles, because it could cause holes in the fabric. Of course I did use a drawing compass, and it didn’t tear the fabric. I like to use what I am used to, and the risk was small.

Until now I took nothing home from my OT sessions (the food of course, but nothing creative). I told her that I am decuttering in the moment and I won’t keep anything I don’t like. We agreed that my pillow will stay in the OT office as a test object, in case it doesn’t please me. It won’t get just thrown away.

I will give my best to create a pretty pillowcase. But if the result doesn’t appeal to me, I won’t burden myself with it. For now, there is a two weeks’ break, because my therapist is on holiday.

See also
Occupational Therapy, Part 4
Occupational Therapy, Part 3
Occupational Therapy, Part 2
Occupational Therapy, Part 1

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Occupational Therapy, Part 4

Occupational Therapy, Part 4

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We finally finished our picture in group OT. We worked on it for the last 12 sessions. Not always everybody was there, but three to five people worked on it every time. As I mentioned here, things not always went smooth, but we did it.

Today we were suprised how many details can be found in the picture. The intern compared it to a hidden objects game, where many little things can be seen. The sky was made by using a sponge, there is real sand in the seabed, the ship has felt sails, and the chest is made from real wood.

The office manager liked the picture so much that she wants to put it in the waiting room, for everyone to see. It’s quite big, about 1,20m to 1,00 m.

Well, we were very relieved this afternoon. The next sessions will be spent with everybody working on her/his own project 😀.

See also
Occupational Therapy, Part 3
Occupational Therapy, Part 2
Occupational Therapy, Part 1
Occupational group therapy

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