Ten Things of Thankful, Week 50/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 50/2018

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Once more I kept up my new daily routine. It was not always easy, but I pulled through, and I am thankful for that.
  • I felt a little bit of self-confidence last week – this was missing for a long time in my life. Don’t know how long this will last, but it sure feels nice!
  • It snowed for the first time this winter. Even better: This happened on the weekend, so my husband and I could enjoy this magic together while taking a long walk with our dogs.
  • My husband continued to work on the fish tank in our living room, and now there are plants and snails in it. Watching this little world come to life makes us both smile.
  • We have all presents for Christmas! Thinking about the joy they will hopefully bring makes my heart swell.
  • I will go to a charity event at another shelter with a friend in February. It’s always nice to spend time with her, so I am looking forward to it.
  • My brother in law said he has a notebook for me (the company he works for give them away for free after they have been used for a few years. So it is not new, but it will work. That’s good, because my notebook is seven years old now and starts to fail). I am glad I don’t have to buy another one.
  • My mother and I planned the dinner on Christmas Eve. We will have two kinds of Fondue, and everyone is looking forward to it!
  • I found a new recipe for noodle casserole we both like. It can easily be made from scratch, just as my husband likes it.
  • So far, the streets have been ok and not frozen. That’s good, because my husband drives to work early, often before the winter service de-ices the roads.
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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 49/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 49/2018

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Another week in which I kept up my new routine. I am very thankful for that!
  • Chores felt a little bit easier this week. I hope there is still room for improvement, but it made me feel less panicky and overwhelmed.
  • I found my rhythm while walking the dogs or working in the house, so I stopped constantly checking the time. That doesn’t make my work easier and it doesn’t make my back ache less, but it reduces my stress level significantly.
  • On Saturday my husband walked the dogs without me, because someone had to wait for the post man. At first I was a little bit sad, because I couldn’t spend time with my pack, but then I took the opportunity and started organizing documents, scanning my medical records and so on. I am not finished yet, but I managed to get a lot done.
  • I have to admit there was a lot of documents to organize… So I am very thankful nothing really bad happened while I was not able to look after it. This can really backfire.
  • While I was at it, I also started to prepare our next tax decleration, which I want to do in February or March. I will be thankful for my preparations then!
  • Yesterday one of our dogs – Sam – got in a fight with another dog. It was really bad and we couldn’t stop them right away, so I am very grateful nobody was hurt.
  • Last week was quiet, and I enjoyed this immensely. I needed this me time.
  • My husband bought new plants for the fish tank in our living room. Hopefully they soon will start to grow. But it already makes everything look nicer.
  • It rained a lot, and it is so good to watch the little rivers in the forests come back after the long dry months.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 48/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 48/2018

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Another week in which I managed to keep up my new routines. I hope my brain will finally get it one day 🙂
  • This week was not so filled up with appointments as the week before. This was a blessing, because I could relax and calm down.
  • Met with a friend on Thursday and we made Christmas cookies – lots and lots of them! Later her daughter (she is eleven years old) joined us after school. We had so much fun together.
  • After the new baby in my husband’s family re-opened so many wounds in my soul, I wasn’t sure how being with my friend and her daughter would make me feel. But I needn’t have worried – it was a wonderful day, full of good talks, warmth and friendship.
  • We ended up with so many cookies, I gave almost half of them to my parents. They were absolutely thrilled and agreed with us the cookies were delicious. I am glad I made my parents happy.
  • Went shopping for clothes yesterday with my mother (this will be my Christmas present from my parents). I was very glad I could spend some extra money on clothes, and we found very nice things.
  • My mother and I had a wonderful time. We weren’t in any hurry, talked a lot and even had the time to sit down and have a cup of coffee. My mother still works full time, so these moments are rare. We both enjoy them very much.
  • I had a very intense therapy session on Friday morning with my therapist. It became obvious that I gained a lot of insight into my depression in the past weeks, and that I can handle it much better now compared to a few months ago. I am sure that will help me in the future.
  • Went ahead with my decluttering project this weekend and decided to donate much more clothes I don’t wear anymore to charity. It was very hard this time to let go, but I think it will be good to get rid of things that only remind me of a past that doesn’t exist anymore. It will help me to focus on the present.
  • Today we lit the first candle on our Advent arrangement. This is always a very special moment. And I am very thankful we found such a nice arrangement at the shelter’s charity event. It will make us smile all the way until Christmas!

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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 47/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 47/2018

So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

1.) Another week in which I managed to keep up my new routine. I am thankful I could keep my self destructive impulses at bay.

2.) It was a busy and hard week, but I managed to keep my appointments and got everything done. It’s nice to have a tidy home to come home to in the evening when you are tired.

3.) We started to clean the fish tank in our living room. It annoyed me that I try my best to keep everything tidy, and that the fish tank looks so bad. We are not finished yet, but we are getting there.

4.) Cleaning the fish tank together with my husband made me feel good. I missed working with him, it reminds me of happy times in the past before depression hit. Maybe we can get a little bit of this spirit back.

5.) Talked to my pain doctor, and she said I did everything right (she was referring to quitting opiates and walking without the walker). She also pointed out that the pain I am dealing with at the moment may be due to the fact that I still have to adjust to my more active lifestyle now, and that I have to become stronger. Muscles atrophy very quickly, and rebuilding them can take months. She said I should just keep on doing what I am doing.

6.) We helped preparing the barn at the shelter for a charity event. It felt good to be able to help.

7.) At the charity event, we bought a very nice Advent arrangement. We are now almost set for Christmas time, I just have to decorate a few more things.

8.) The smell of fresh Advent arrangements always helps me to get into a festive pre-Christmas mood. We don’t have a Christmas tree, because we are afraid our pets would climb into it or destroy it, but arrangements are a must!

9.) I picked up my decluttering project again and threw away some more things. I am in no hurry, but I will continue when I have the time. It’s painful to let things go, but it’s good to have everything in order.

10.) We found nice dog beds for our living room. This looks far more nicer than the blankets, but our dogs are very picky (in fact, Sam decided he wanted to have this dog bed by jumping on it in the store, and we followed his lead – our pets trained us very well. At least it was not expensive, and we have to admit Sam has good taste).

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 46/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 46/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • It was another week in which I managed to stay on course, taking care of my pack and the chores, so my brain can process the new routines.
  • My parents had their 48th wedding anniversary. I am happy for them, of course, but they also are very good role models for me. They always made clear that a marriage has to be taken seriously, and that you have to deal with the bad times as well. This made me the dedicated wife I am.
  • My husband and me had a wonderful date night at a chinese restaurant. It’s important to have these moments together.
  • Helped a friend from the shelter putting on winter tires on her car. I like helping others when I can. It makes me happy as well.
  • Had a good appointment with my psychiatrist. She told me I am doing well, and that I have to give myself more time. This was good to hear.
  • Arranged a meeting with another friend, we will bake together later in the month. It will be good to see her again, and I am sure we will have fun baking together (we did this before, and it always was a success!).
  • It’s getting cold. I am very thankful for my warm winter clothes, and that I was able to buy what I needed.
  • Even though it is November, the weather was still mostly sunny and I was able to enjoy the good weather while walking the dogs. It helped me to keep depression at bay.
  • After taking the dogs for a long walk yesterday, my husband and I ate in a greek fast food restaurant, so I didn’t have to cook. That was nice for a change.
  • Friday was a challenging day for me. My husband left in the morning for work and didn’t return until late in the evening. I looked after the dogs, walk them twice and feed them in the evening. My husband was very glad he could rely on me again. This was good for both of us.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 45/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 45/2018

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Another week in which I managed to get chores done, walked the dogs and kept a good balance between work and rest. I am still not completely used to this new lifestyle, but this was another good week that should help me getting there in the long run.
  • I had to deal with my first real setback. I still feel the aftershocks and there is still room for improvement as my crisis management is concerned, but I dealt with it and avoided collateral damage.
  • Once again I recognized I am not alone in this fight, and that I have lots of support.
  • Started with my single OT-sessions again. I enjoy having group therapy as well, but this hour is just for me, and this helps to calm me down.
  • Our dishwater didn’t complete its washing cycle anymore, because the dirty water stayed in the machine. Good thing my husband, who repairs bigger machines at work, was able to fix it (a pump was blocked by dirt). So we saved lots of money.
  • My husband and me agreed it was time to have another “date night”. We decided on eating at a chinese restaurant Wednesday evening. It’s something special, because both of us can’t cook chinese, so we don’t have chinese food very often.
  • For the last time this year, we enjoyed ice cream and coffee after our Saturday “shelter walk”. The cafe is closing for a long winter holiday and will re-open in March. That’s sad, but we really became friendly with the staff and are looking to seeing them again in spring.
  • We also agreed that we will go to a greek fast food restaurant on Saturdays during the cold months after walking the dogs – it’s so good to have quality time with my husband.
  • So far I managed to keep my weight I had when I left the hospital (I had lost 5 kg during my time on the ward). Well, having two canine personal trainers definitely helps with that.
  • Even though it is November, I still managed to catch some sunlight. This makes me feel so much better, body and soul.

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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 44/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 44/2018

  • This was another week in which I managed to find a good mix between chores, exercise and relaxation. I am thankful I had enough energy and self discipline.
  • My pack was happy because it felt cared for by me, and that made me happy as well. Win-win!
  • Talked to my mother on the phone and told her I sometimes still struggle with this new life. My mother works with mentally ill people herself and knew what I was talking about. She said: “You think this is hard, because IT IS HARD. No therapy can prepare you for this. But I think you’re doing great.” That was exactly what I needed to hear.
  • Met with my best friend for thirty years after a long time, and it was like we spoke just yesterday. I am very thankful for this strong bond between us.
  • Talked to my therapist for the first time since my hospital stay. He reassured me I am doing well and that things will become easier. His advice was to keep on doing what I am doing, and to remember that slow and steady wins the race. It was good to hear this.
  • Had some quality time with my husband. This makes us both feel validated and loved.
  • Met a woman who was in group OT with me and I haven’t seen in months. She said I was looking good. She has seen me at my worst, so this was a nice compliment.
  • Had a small setback, which made me feel very sad and worthless. But the good thing is, it only lasted a few hours. I can live with that. 
  • The shelter dog we take with us for a walk every Saturday has not one, but two nice potential candidates who want to adopt him. Both of them wanted to meet us and talk to us, because we know Truman. We appreciate their efforts and of course are very willing to help.
  • My OT therapist told me I can resume with my single OT sessions next week. I am looking forward to this!