Ten Things of Thankful, Week 07/2019

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 07/2019

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Had a good talk with my psychiatrist on Monday. She said I should give my husband’s birthday party a go, and told me not to worry about it now, because nobody can tell how I will feel at this day. This calmed me down.
  • We agreed not to change my regular medications, but to try another stronger as-needed med for anxiety. I am very relieved there will be no big changes in my medication for now, because this can be hard.
  • She also said, that I feel bad now only means I will feel good again in the future. This really helps me to see bad times a different way!
  • I found a new recipe to make mashed potatoes, and we liked it a lot. It’s always nice to find alternatives.
  • Another week with chaos in my head *sigh*, but I again kept up with chores and appointments. If I am able to do so, I know things could be worse. That’s good.
  • On Friday I had an appointment with my therapist. Some very interesting questions came up, I have a lot to think about now. But it’s always good to see things from another angle. I am thankful for all the help I get from him.
  • Saturday it was warm enough to sit in the sun with our friend and her dog (Irmi slowly continues to get better). All of us – three dogs and as many humans) enjoyed it very much.
  • Speaking of pets: Our cat was able to have nice, long strolls outside again. Her mood improved so much, it was so nice to see.
  • Yesterday I met with a friend, and we drove to a seminar with a man who works with difficult dogs (he likes Rottweilers most). I am always looking out for ways to help our dog Sam, and I had some aha-moments. I am grateful for every puzzle piece we find!
  • We met many nice people yesterday who also gave dogs with problems a new home. It was nice to be a part of this.

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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 06/2019

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 06/2019

So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • My husband and I talked about his upcoming birthday party, and how we could make it as pleasant as possible for everybody. He likes to have his family around, on the other hand it is very difficult for me to be near his sister’s baby. But I think we found a compromise that works for both of us. I am glad we finally had this talk, because I thought this for a long time. It really cleared the air between us.
  • I talked about this with my mother (again), and said I wasn’t sure if I was up to hosting my husband’s birthday party. She said: “You both agreed to do this, now don’t make it worse by second guessing it and just give it a try. You’ll be fine!” I needed to hear this.
  • My OT therapist encouraged me to give my husband’s birthday party a try as well. She – like my mother – said I will rock this, and that I am stronger than I think. It’s so good to have so many people backing me up and helping me. Not everybody is so lucky.
  • I enjoyed working on my projects in OT this week (a mosaic in group OT, weaving a basket in single OT). And after all those talks about the upcoming party, I absolutely NEEDED our relaxation group on Thursday! It worked wonders.
  • Our friend’s dog, sweet little Irmi, was very sick and suffered from pancreatitis and gastritis. Finally, she seems to get better! I know from my own experience how hard it is to see your pet suffer.
  • Our fish tank does not only look nice – we found out that at least three of the shrimps are carrying eggs, and the snail population multiplied already… Well, we must do something right, and it’s good to see that the animals like their new home so much. We are responsible for their well-being, after all. And the plants are growing like crazy.
  • Even though it was a difficult week, I managed to keep up with my chores and walking the dogs. When I felt stressed, I took a shorter walk, but I managed to stick to my schedule. I am more resilient than I was last year, and I hope I never forget this.
  • I made my own bread, and we both enjoyed it so much. I am glad if I can make my husband happy, and I will keep this up if possible. It’s healthy to know what’s in your bread anyway.
  • The snow is finally gone, and I hope it stays this way. I also saw the first buds on our quince bush. Spring comes nearer, and I like it. This winter was exhausting.
  • I met with my father, and it was wonderful. We will meet on February 18th again to do my parents’ tax declaration. I like to help my parents, because they do so much for me.

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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 05/2019

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 05/2019

So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • My decluttering project went to the next level. I definitely am finished were my clothes are concerned, and now I just need to be mindful and not start collecting again. Next are my books – there are so many I will never read again. I am aware of the fact this can be hard as well, but I now it will make me feel better in the end.
  • My cold is almost gone, so I was able to start walking our dogs again. Janet enjoyed playing in the snow so much, Sam is calmer when he gets some excercise, and I can bild up stamina again.
  • It would have been easy for me just to give up and not start walking the dogs again, but I managed to get into it again. It’s the little things sometimes!
  • My husband suggested I bake some bread for him to have for breakfast at work. I managed to do so, and it tastes so good. I hope I will be able to keep this up!
  • At first I was sad when I learned I had to spend Saturday alone – usually we take a long walk with a friend, her dog and a dog from the shelter. But my husband went to a fishing trade fair, and our friend’s dog is ill. So I decided to walk the dogs, and then go shopping and spend the afternoon in town. And it was nice. I am glad I didn’t stay home sulking!
  • I started using the Thermomix my mother-in-law gave us. I am sure there still is a lot to learn, but I am thankful I found the energy to start learning.
  • We had some really nasty winter days with slippery roads. I am grateful nothing happened to our family and friends.
  • The weather changed, and I am very glad we get a pause from the winter, even if it is just for a few days.
  • The fish tank is now finished – my husband put in the last fish. It looks so nice, and it turned out to be a real eyecatcher. All the work really paid off, the change it made to the living room is incredible. We like to watch it, there is so much to see and so much life.
  • We are way into a new project in OT. I never made a mosaic before, but I like it and I am looking forward to spending the next sessions doing it.

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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 04/2019

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 04/2019

So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

Wow, I can’t believe January is almost over. It has been a busy month with many emotions, that’s for sure.

  • Today we put up black foil at the backside of the fish tank. The effect is amazing, it adds depth. An added bonus is, that the cables are now hidden from sight as well. Again, we worked as a team, and this felt so good.
  • We still are not completely over this darn cold, but every day it bothers us a little less. I am grateful our bodies are able to fight this, it could be so much worse than a cold.
  • I am thankful that our rivers and reservoirs have almost completely recovered from the draught that lasted from April to November last year. December and January brought lots of water, so we are fine again for now.
  • My mother-in-law gave us her Thermomix machine yesterday. I am looking forward to learn how to cook with it (it’s quite different from the way I am used to), and I am hoping to find some new recipes as well.
  • When we visited my parents-in-law yesterday, they were so kind and understanding. They accept I still struggle to see the baby and even offered to host my husband’s birthday party next month. We will see, but I appreciate they try to help.
  • I am thankful my husband is also very considerate were my feelings are concerned. He said he will follow my lead where his birthday is concerned. I know how much he likes to be around his family, so this means a lot to me.
  • We decided we will have dinner in a chinese Restaurant on my husband’s birthday (it’s a Tuesday), just the two of us. I am looking forward to it. It helps me a lot when there are things in the future that make me happy.
  • My father and I arranged a meeting. These father-daughter talks mean so much to me – there were times we didn’t get along very well. It’s a good thing these times are over. Every time we agree to meet I am thankful.
  • I am glad this week was a quiet one with lots of time for resting. I really needed this.
  • Watched the first season of the irish TV series “The Fall” with the wonderful Gillian Anderson and enjoyed every moment of it!
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 03/2019

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 03/2019

So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • The weather changed from chilly, wet and cloudy to cold, dry and sunny. I like this so much! Yesterday we bundled up and had a wonderful walk with our friend, her dog and a dog from the shelter. I felt like I was bathed in lots of light.
  • On Boxing Day last year, another dog was found abandoned in front of the shelter. But this time, thankfully the former owners were caught and will have to pay for it. Sadly, this rarely happens. And of course, this doesn’t help Buddy (this is how the staff named the dog), but maybe his former owner learns from this – that throwing away pets like trash is indeed a crime, and hopefully this will have a lasting impact on their conscience. I hope something good will come from this sad event.
  • My mother had more dental surgery on Friday, and everything went well. I am grateful for that!
  • I got a very nasty cold this week, but also lots of support. My husband encouraged me to take it easy, my doctor gave me some pills – so I didn’t have to buy them – and our pets were very patient with me.
  • On Tuesday was my yearly visit with my OB/Gyn. Everything went well, and I was very relieved to hear that. I will have a mammo/sono later in September, but I will deal with this later.
  • Wednesday I discussed my latest blood work with my doctor. The results were mixed, my blood sugar is great, but my liver is stressed by either the new pain killer or the new psychotropic drug. But it’s nothing I have to deal with now, it can wait until next month. And I am thankful my blood sugar is ok!
  • Thursday I went to my dentist, I need a new bite guard. I was coughing a lot, and I just hoped for a break while the impression was made… And I was lucky! Another thing I got out of the way.
  • I didn’t go to OT on Thursday because I felt bad from my cold. This made me feel like I had somehow failed, but I am glad I was able to take care of myself.
  • Thursday and Friday I was too tired to walk the dogs. This made me feel bad, but my health needs to come first. Well, I learned this much, I guess. And the dogs are fine.
  • My husband was given Red Fire shrimps by his brother for the fish tank in our living room. They look so pretty and add even more life. We enjoy sitting and watching, and my husband is by no means finished. It’s so nice to see this former eyesore becoming such a pretty sight.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 02/2019

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 02/2019

So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • It was our 24th wedding anniversary. I am very thankful that we got this far – through good and bad times. This is not always easy, but both of us agree that a marriage is something worth fighting for.
  • My husband got a nasty cold with lots of coughing, which made our nights really difficult. I tried to help him through this, and it seems he is finally on the mend – I am grateful for that.
  • On Saturday, my husband stayed at home while I was walking our dogs together with our friend and her dog. We had a tricky situation when we went down a really busy street. I was pleasantly surprised that our nervous dog Sam stayed near me and didn’t even try to attack other people – the same situation was very difficult in October. Yay, success!
    I felt Sam and I really built a connection during those last three months. When we walk the dogs together, I take care of Janet, and my husband has Sam. But the dogs are by now also used to walking just with me on a daily basis. And this finally seems to pay off. I feel very honored that he starts to trust me.
  • I also was a little proud of myself that I learned to handle those situations on my own now. This is not always the case, Sam’s behavior still is and will be unpredictable, but I don’t feel so overwhelmed by it.
  • We went to the Vet with Janet for her yearly checkup. She may be ten years old, but she is still in good health. We liked to hear that.
  • I noticed the days are becoming longer. What a relief. I can deal with cold weather, but the darkness sometimes adds to my depression. But more light is a promise spring will come some day.
  • Helped my parents with their laptop, which acted really weird… To be honest, I didn’t understand everything and I don’t know Windows 10 as well as Windows 7, but I found a solution for almost everything. I am glad I could help and that everything works now.
  • Talked to my mother yesterday, and it seems she deals very well with her brother’s death. I was very glad to hear this.
  • Found a new recipe for delicous wraps we both like. Sometimes it’s good to add something new to the menu.
  • OT started again, and it was great to meet all the patients and my therapist again. We agreed on a new group project, everybody will make a mosaic on a canvas, and all four parts put together will form a compass rose. I am looking forward to it!
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 01/2019

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 01/2019

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So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • I am very grateful for the new year. 2018 was very exhausting, even though I learned a lot. Let’s hope 2019 will go easy on me.
  • It was sad we had to go to my uncle’s funeral on Wednesday, but this brought up so many things to be thankful for as well. First, I felt very honored that I was invited to the funeral, because there had been times when our families completely fell out of touch. Even though these times are over, things had been tricky and I am glad we all were able to put the past aside for now.
  • I was so thankful to have my father by my side at the funeral. It must have been hard for him to go to another funeral, because he had to say goodbye to three friends in 2018. But we can always count on him. Not only did he help my mother and me through this, he also knew exactly what to say to my aunt and my cousin as well.
  • I am so grateful for my mother. My brother was her last sibling, but she tried to console my aunt, my cousin and me. She is such a caring person. She thanked my father and me that we were by her side – of course we were.
  • When we stood at the grave and the coffin was ready to be lowered into the ground, we were asked to say the Lord’s Prayer for my uncle. This was a powerful experience, I felt we all were united by praying together. I am grateful I could be a part of this.
  • While listening to the funeral speaker, love for my uncle felt my heart, and I recognized I have a choice: Stay resentful and bitter, or forgive those who have hurt me. After all, I never walked in their shoes. So I started with forgiving my uncle, and my heart felt like a huge weight have been lifted. It was the right thing to do, and I am thankful for this experience.
  • After the funeral, we all were invited to a restaurant where my uncle liked to eat. Two hours later, everybody left feeling happy, even my aunt and my cousin. I know they will grieve for a long time, but for a moment they were comforted by having all of us around them, remembering my uncle.
  • When I got home after the funeral, I was very thankful that my husband and the pets were alright.
  • Before I went to the funeral I felt very bad and had panic attacks. I am so glad I went anyway! I felt so much better afterwards.
  • My husband didn’t work from Christmas to New Year. We enjoyed having time together. The fish tank in the living room is not finished yet, but we put the first fish in it. We like to sit in front of it and just watch, it’s so entertaining.