Ten Things of Thankful, Week 41/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 41/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • I got home finally on Thursday after eight weeks of inpatient treatment. Even though this feels strange, I am very sure more therapy wouldn’t have helped me more. Good timing, I think.
  • Therapy has not always been easy, but I feel well prepared for life and like how my mind feels right now.
  • Our dogs greeted me very warmly after seeing me rather sporadically for two months. It may have helped I brought treats, of course😀. But it’s good they didn’t forget me. It’s so difficult to explain to animals a human has to leave for weeks.
  • Our cat also quickly got used to me being home again – one human more to boss around, but she also has been very cuddly since then.
  • My husband and I celebrated my homecoming with a very nice evening at a Thai restaurant. These times were it’s just the two of us doing something nice definitely have to happen more often. And I have many good ideas!
  • My husband was finally able to go on a long fishing trip. He wanted to this in summer, but couldn’t go because I went to the hospital. I am glad the weather is still nice and hope he enjoys it very much.
  • I took a long walk today. The weather was sunny and warm, and it relaxed me so much.
  • While walking, I met several people doing the same. Everybody was in a very good mood, we all smiled at each other. This is rare in Germany😁.
  • Now that I am home I am free to choose what I eat… Believe me, eight weeks of bland hospital food made me long for fresh fruit and salad! How are you supposed to get healthy when all you eat is processed food?
  • At first I was afraid leaving the secure environment the hospital created would leave me feeling insecure and afraid, but I was lucky and adapted very quickly.
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Ten Things of Thankful, Week 40/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 40/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • I had my last weekend-visit at home! I will be released on Thursday, it’s good to go home again, finally! Eight weeks are a long time.
  • My mental health improved a lot during therapy. I didn’t expect this excellent outcome at the beginning.
  • I was alone for the most time this weekend (well, of course our cat was with me), because my husband celebrated his mother’s birthday. Everybody was so supportive and understood this would have been too much for me after a hard week of inpatient therapy.
  • And I didn’t freak out about being alone after always being around other people for the last eight weeks. I handled this really well. Like I said, therapy worked well for me.
  • I was offered to come back to the hospital again, if serious problems occur again. I am very glad to have this possibility, even though I hope I won’t need it.
  • The windows at home were cleaned last week. This helps me a lot.
  • I found new ways to deal with my pain, and it is still manageable. This was another important step, and I noticed opiates make me feel tired and don’t help with my depression. That’s good to know.
  • I am very certain this mental health crisis is finally over. That’s good, because it lasted almost a year. I am very aware of the fact that it probably wasn’t the last time I will have to deal with depression. But for now, hey, I will enjoy life as long as possible.
  • I started planning ahead for my time after therapy, and this felt good. I am so ready to go home!
  • I was able to help other patients who are struggling. It shows me again how far I have come in the eight weeks.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 37/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 37/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Yesterday we walked our dogs, and I felt strong enough to walk two furbabies. Before I started therapy here, I didn’t trust myself enough to lead one!
  • We have found a routine that works for all of us at the weekend. It contains enough time outdoors, resting, doing chores and for the two if us.
  • Yesterday evening and today our cat Jackie came to me and we just cuddled and I listed to her purring. This felt magic.
  • Last week in therapy was hard, but I battled my way through it. I feel much calmer and optimistic compared to the beginning.
  • The biggest part of therapy is over, and I am very happy to go home on October, 11th.
  • Fall is finally here, and for the moment I enjoy it very much. This summer was so hot.
  • It’s still warm enough for ice cream😃
  • We mad pizza today, and it tasted really good. I am looking forward to cooking my own meals at home again.
  • Today, I had no problems getting to the hospital again. Last week the train was late and I was late.
  • Last, but not least I am still grateful I have such a good place to return to after therapy, so I know what I am working for. I am so often reminded here that this is not a given.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 36/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 36/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-communityagain. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Last week I made the first big steps forward in therapy. I feel better already, even though I know there is still a long journey ahead of me.
  • Somehow, I started to feel a little more hopeful. This is such a relief. Living without hope is terrible.
  • Our therapist in creative therapy told me that I have a firm grip on reality. It’s good to hear I get something right. I still feel unstable and a little bit confused.
  • The head physician told me again I am doing great and just to go ahead. Feeling her optimism made me feel better as well.
  • I was able to go home for the weekend. My roommate was not allowed to go, so I think of it as a kind of reward.
  • One of the dogs at the shelter was adopted. We took him for a walk every Saturday for the last year, and we will miss him terribly, but I hope he finally found a forever home.
  • We had some very good ice cream after walking the dogs on Saturday. I had been looking forward to this for the whole week!
  • I made a cake for our ward on Friday, and it turned out great. And I had so much fun making it!
  • As my husband heard this, of course he wanted to have this cake as well. I am glad I had the energy to bake again today at home.
  • My husband and I cooked lunch together today. It was so good, and a real team work.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 35/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 35/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-communityagain. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • I once again was able to go home for the weekend. It’s so important for me to stay in touch with my pack. They rock!
  • We went for a long walk with the dogs on Saturday. The weather was sunny and not so hot. It was so good for my soul to breathe fresh air after a week in town.
  • My husband and I had ice cream after walking the dogs, it was nice to spend some quality time with my pack.
  • Our dog Sam allowed a stranger to pet him, that was a first! He really feels safe with us more often.
  • Fell asleep last night with a purring cat on my tummy, this sure felt great.
  • Our therapist in creative therapy talked to me about my picture, and he helped me see things I didn’t.
  • I was told twice I am working hard in therapy this week, and this was a nice thing to hear.
  • My father visited me Thursday evening, we took a walk and talked. Sometimes it’s good to take a break from therapy and all that.
  • Called my mother today, and she was so supportive as well. You can’t walk this way alone.
  • I once again was told by many people that I matter, and it’s good I can talk to so many friends so openly about my problems.
Ten Things of Thankful, Week 34/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 34/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

Well, I have to admit it, this week I could not stop thinking about one big thing I am thankful for, and this is my home. I have a place where I can return to anytime. Where I am welcomed and loved as I am. Talking to other patients has shown me this is not a given. And it felt so good to come home Saturday after two and a half weeks. There was my husband waiting for me, the dogs greeted me and later our cat used me as a human pillow, like she always does. I felt so loved. Now I have returned to the hospital, facing another week of therapy, but I will work hard to become better. All those who love me deserve it.

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 33/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 33/2018


So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:again. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • My parents and I enjoy that I am nearby, even if it’s for a hospital stay. We spend more time together and have good talks.
  • My father picked my dirty laundry up, and my mother washed them for me. That was very helpful, and they liked to help me out. That was a nice feeling.
  • My husband is always there for me and even drives long distances to visit me with the dogs.
  • So many people in the blogosphere and in real life encourage me to go on and find a way to heal. I am very thankful for that, and so I make one step after the other towards a better life. A heartfelt Thank You to everybody 💓 who read and/or commented my entries, it helped more than you will ever know.
  • The staff here always has an open ear for us day and night and goes to great lengths to help us. This creates a warm atmosphere in which healing can take place.
  • I managed to avoid binge eating since I am here. I eat three meals a day, and that’s it. And I am not hungry all the time, as I thought I would be. I feel better this way, and maybe I can keep this up.
  • Talking to the other patients helps as well. I got a refresher course to listen and talk without judgement.
  • I am mostly relieved from chores while I am here. This is a nice change.
  • I will be home next weekend! I have no doubt my husband isn’t capable of looking after our furbabies, but I can’t wait to cuddle with Jackie and listen to her purring.
  • Last but not least: I start to believe my life really can improve.