So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:
- Had a good talk with my psychiatrist on Monday. She said I should give my husband’s birthday party a go, and told me not to worry about it now, because nobody can tell how I will feel at this day. This calmed me down.
- We agreed not to change my regular medications, but to try another stronger as-needed med for anxiety. I am very relieved there will be no big changes in my medication for now, because this can be hard.
- She also said, that I feel bad now only means I will feel good again in the future. This really helps me to see bad times a different way!
- I found a new recipe to make mashed potatoes, and we liked it a lot. It’s always nice to find alternatives.
- Another week with chaos in my head *sigh*, but I again kept up with chores and appointments. If I am able to do so, I know things could be worse. That’s good.
- On Friday I had an appointment with my therapist. Some very interesting questions came up, I have a lot to think about now. But it’s always good to see things from another angle. I am thankful for all the help I get from him.
- Saturday it was warm enough to sit in the sun with our friend and her dog (Irmi slowly continues to get better). All of us – three dogs and as many humans) enjoyed it very much.
- Speaking of pets: Our cat was able to have nice, long strolls outside again. Her mood improved so much, it was so nice to see.
- Yesterday I met with a friend, and we drove to a seminar with a man who works with difficult dogs (he likes Rottweilers most). I am always looking out for ways to help our dog Sam, and I had some aha-moments. I am grateful for every puzzle piece we find!
- We met many nice people yesterday who also gave dogs with problems a new home. It was nice to be a part of this.
The last days have been warmer, so Jackie can spend more time outside. She is very happy about this!
To be honest, I am glad it is not warm enough yet that she wants to be in the garden all day. When the weather is bad or cold, Jackie and I have a extra snuggling session in the morning, and I like it so much.
My husband gets up quite early, but before he leaves for work, he feeds Jackie and the dogs. If Jackie wants to go out then, he lets her in the garden. If she doesn’t feel like it, she comes back to bed after this. She then is full and in a very good mood, so she purrs a lot and wants to be near me. Sometimes I wake up when she jumps onto the bed, sometimes I don’t, but we both enjoy the warmth and the quiet atmosphere for a little bit longer. I can’t think of a better way to start the day!
The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.
I am so grateful for my husband. He didn’t just insist on having a birthday party, he is also very considerate of my feelings and my lack of energy.
Another thing I am thankful for is OT today, I was able to spend one and a half hours relaxing. I needed this so much!
As you can see, our Jackie is not a happy camper right now. She loves to be outside and do… whatever she wants to do outside, we don’t know. At the moment it is cold and wet, and when we let her out, she wants to come in again after a few minutes. This is very frustrating for her, and her mood can be bad.
We tried to play with her, but she looks at us like we were nuts. So all of us will have to wait for better weather!
So I proudly join the TToT-community again. Let’s see what I can contribute:
- The weather changed from chilly, wet and cloudy to cold, dry and sunny. I like this so much! Yesterday we bundled up and had a wonderful walk with our friend, her dog and a dog from the shelter. I felt like I was bathed in lots of light.
- On Boxing Day last year, another dog was found abandoned in front of the shelter. But this time, thankfully the former owners were caught and will have to pay for it. Sadly, this rarely happens. And of course, this doesn’t help Buddy (this is how the staff named the dog), but maybe his former owner learns from this – that throwing away pets like trash is indeed a crime, and hopefully this will have a lasting impact on their conscience. I hope something good will come from this sad event.
- My mother had more dental surgery on Friday, and everything went well. I am grateful for that!
- I got a very nasty cold this week, but also lots of support. My husband encouraged me to take it easy, my doctor gave me some pills – so I didn’t have to buy them – and our pets were very patient with me.
- On Tuesday was my yearly visit with my OB/Gyn. Everything went well, and I was very relieved to hear that. I will have a mammo/sono later in September, but I will deal with this later.
- Wednesday I discussed my latest blood work with my doctor. The results were mixed, my blood sugar is great, but my liver is stressed by either the new pain killer or the new psychotropic drug. But it’s nothing I have to deal with now, it can wait until next month. And I am thankful my blood sugar is ok!
- Thursday I went to my dentist, I need a new bite guard. I was coughing a lot, and I just hoped for a break while the impression was made… And I was lucky! Another thing I got out of the way.
- I didn’t go to OT on Thursday because I felt bad from my cold. This made me feel like I had somehow failed, but I am glad I was able to take care of myself.
- Thursday and Friday I was too tired to walk the dogs. This made me feel bad, but my health needs to come first. Well, I learned this much, I guess. And the dogs are fine.
- My husband was given Red Fire shrimps by his brother for the fish tank in our living room. They look so pretty and add even more life. We enjoy sitting and watching, and my husband is by no means finished. It’s so nice to see this former eyesore becoming such a pretty sight.
Psst… Purr-a-medic at work here!
Unfortunately my husband’s germs found me as well. I really can’t remember when I coughed so much the last time.
When my husband was at work, our pets took good care of me. Sam barked loudly at everyone who came near the house, Janet tried to make me join her on the couch (“Here, pat my tummy! This will make you feel better in no time!”).
But of course Jackie stayed closest to me. Feeling her purring up a storm on my stomach had healing powers. And she is very patient with me, staying for hours by my side. So it’s no surprise I already feel much better!
…are very close in my family this Christmas. There was the death of my uncle on the one side, and meeting with my parents and the fact that Christmas reminds us of Christ’s birth on the other side. My mother was a little bit sad, but mostly she was relieved her brother does not have to suffer anymore. We had a glass of prosecco before the meal and toasted to the living and the dead.
The relationship we had with my uncle’s family was very complicated at times. For years there was no contact, and we still don’t know why. When we went to bed, I felt like I was stuck at that time. I was a teenager back then, and I felt hurt and irritated on one hand, and I saw how much my mother suffered on the other hand. When we started talking again, it never was the same for me again.
On Christmas Day my self pity was over, and I thought how terrible my aunt and my cousin must feel: A woman lost her husband of more than fifty years… A daughter has to live without her father from now on. THAT is bad.
I asked my mother for my cousin’s mobile phone number, we know my aunt can’t deal with this right now.
Then I spent two hours thinking about what to write (I hate platitudes). Finally I gave up and texted that I was at a loss for words, and that our thoughts are with them. My cousin replied quickly, thanked me and said, she will let us know when the funeral takes place as soon as they know the details.
And then something strange happened: I remembered all the good moments before our families parted ways for many years. How I played with my cousin at a lake near their home, how my aunt’s mother read to us, how we went horseback riding together. And I started to smile, not everything was bad after all. My anger disappeared, and I felt more at peace.
I am dreading the funeral ceremony, because this will bring up lots of feelings again, but I try not to think about it too much right now.