Friendly Fill-Ins Week 123

Friendly Fill-Ins Week 123

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-Legged Furballs and 15andmeowing So here we go:

1. The last time I laughed was at dinner. It’s wonderful to laugh, but depression let me forget how to do it. It’s coming back now, and this is amazing!

2. Life isn’t always easy, but sometimes something good comes from the hard times.

3. Depression is a blessing in disguise. It may be hard to overcome, but it teaches you some valuable lessons about yourself.

4. My favorite word is hope. It can keep us going when things get tough.

Shared destiny

Shared destiny

The most patients here live in two-bed-rooms. It is not always easy if two strangers have to share such little  space. 

Mostly, we get along quite well. I am spending more time in the  bathroom in the evening, and M. in  the morning. Both of us like it quiet. We respect each other’s space.

When we met, both of us felt very down. Now I feel much better, M. doesn’t. This imbalance is sometimes difficult to handle.

I really would like to help her,  but there’s not much I can do. And I have to work hard to get better myself.

I try to listen and to create a good atmosphere. I can’t imagine how hard it must be for M. that the others are getting better while she doesn’t. We don’t talk about this.

I made the picture above in creative therapy today. Finally my life of light is burning again.



When I am told something I often feel that I must DO something about this, even if I am just given bare facts. To make the right decision is often difficult for me.
So I start too many things, barely manage to finish a few  of them, and feel absolutely beaten when I think about the many things I still have to do.

I am working on a kind of filter that helps me focus on the really important things. Right now, this filter doesn’t work as good as I need it to be.

But I am sure that working on this will pay off.

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 36/2018

Ten Things of Thankful, Week 36/2018

So I proudly join the TToT-communityagain. Let’s see what I can contribute:

  • Last week I made the first big steps forward in therapy. I feel better already, even though I know there is still a long journey ahead of me.
  • Somehow, I started to feel a little more hopeful. This is such a relief. Living without hope is terrible.
  • Our therapist in creative therapy told me that I have a firm grip on reality. It’s good to hear I get something right. I still feel unstable and a little bit confused.
  • The head physician told me again I am doing great and just to go ahead. Feeling her optimism made me feel better as well.
  • I was able to go home for the weekend. My roommate was not allowed to go, so I think of it as a kind of reward.
  • One of the dogs at the shelter was adopted. We took him for a walk every Saturday for the last year, and we will miss him terribly, but I hope he finally found a forever home.
  • We had some very good ice cream after walking the dogs on Saturday. I had been looking forward to this for the whole week!
  • I made a cake for our ward on Friday, and it turned out great. And I had so much fun making it!
  • As my husband heard this, of course he wanted to have this cake as well. I am glad I had the energy to bake again today at home.
  • My husband and I cooked lunch together today. It was so good, and a real team work.
Friendly Fill-Ins Week 122

Friendly Fill-Ins Week 122

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-Legged Furballs and andand 15andmeowing So here we go:

1. Being hard of hearing is often difficult. But many mishaps are downright funny!

2. If dirty laundry were worth money, then I would be rich. It just piles up, human clothing, dog blankets…

3. I am proud of my pack. Together we are quite strong.

4. If I could time travel, I would visit the year 1946, August 28th, to be exact. I would tell my Grandma that it is nobody’s fault her second twin was born sick.