Thankful Thursday #49

Thankful Thursday #49

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today I am thankful for my intuition. It told me quite clearly something was wrong with my gums. There was an itching, burning sensation and bleeding. So Corona be damned, I made an appointment with my dentist, and luckily could be seen the next day.

The dentist is another thing I am thankful for. Turns out I have a moderate case of periodontitis. This can become a serious problem and make teeth fall out. He was so nice, he assured me he sees I take good care of my teeth, and this isn’t my fault. He also came up with a plan and told me what to do. Unfortunately this isn’t something that goes away in a week, we are talking at least a year, but I am sure he knows what he is doing. Health insurance has to agree first, so we have to wait another three weeks before starting treatment, but I am glad I listened to my intuition and went to the dentist before something really bad happened.

Have a wonderful day!

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Under my skin, part 2

Under my skin, part 2

 

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In February my mother learned that her favorite brother-in-law had been admitted to the hospital for palliative care. We knew about his brain cancer, but he had been living with it for years, so we almost forgot. He died two weeks later. This was before Corona struck, so his family could be with him.

Werner – this was the name of my cousin’s uncle – always was an upbeat and optimistic person. For years there was a lot of tension between my uncle’s familiy and our family, but Werner always was fair and made an effort to include us at the familiy gatherings. The last time I met him was at my uncle’s funeral. I saw he was wearing hearing aids and asked him about them. He explained that the radiation treatment for the tumour had affected the auditory nerve. He also was very open about how the cancer changed his life, that he suffered from vertigo and couldn’t ride his bike or drive a car anymore. This talk could have been very sad, but it was everything but. He accepted the limitations, but he went on living as well as possible.

My maternal grandmother died in 2000 of metastatic pancreatic cancer. Since she had had breast cancer in her thirties, she always was afraid the next serious illness was just around the corner. Every sniffle was a sign of a severe disease. I have to admit, at some point I stopped listening. Her doctors stopped listening as well. It’s bad to suffer from cancer twice in a lifetime, but for me it’s also bad that the time between her bouts with cancer was filled with so much fear and sorrow.  There was almost no happiness in my grandmother’s life. That must have been a hard life to live.

Two very different stories… I learned from that we have a choice how we deal with cancer. We can make the best from it, but we can also allow the gloom to take over. People like Werner show us how it can be done. And I will try to listen to people like my grandmother, so they can get rid of their burden, at least a little bit.

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Thankful Thursday #48

Thankful Thursday #48

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today I am grateful for our summer therapy break. Our therapist is wonderful, the group is great, but right now I feel tired and enjoy my free Thursday mornings.  Something is changing in my mind, and right now taking it easy is the best thing I can do. I know I am processing a lot at the moment, and I am sure this will help me a great deal, but it has to happen at its own pace. So this break came at the right time, and that’s my big thankful for today.

Have a great day!

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Under my skin, part 1

Under my skin, part 1

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I’m fine, but I find myself thinking about cancer a lot these days, so this is the first part of a mini-series.

It’s summer, which is moodwise a good time for me, as is spring. But it is also the time of the year where I am reminded on a daily basis that I’m at a higher risk to devolop Melanoma (again) than most people. Leaving the house or just sitting on the terrace requires some planning and preperation, like using sun blocker.  As you can see in the picture above, there’s not much tan on my skin, but that’s the least of my worries. I’m not always able to enjoy the nice warm summer days. Sometimes I think “Am I careful enough? Is this time in the sun too much and will cause cancer?”

In February I had a check up with my dermatologist. He said: “It was almost twenty years ago that you have been diagnosed with Melanoma.”

I know he meant well, like “Don’t worry”. But the truth is my life has changed irrevocably with my cancer diagnosis, and I lost a big part of carefreeness forever. It’s not always the others who get cancer… But acting responsibly and protecting my skin means I am confronted with it every day. It’s difficult to steer a middle course: Being mindful and careful is helpful, panic isn’t and makes things even harder.

Sometimes I get angry when I see how careless many people are behaving in the sun, without giving the possibility of getting Melanoma a single thought. I would like to be so carefree again, but I have two scars on my left leg as a constant reminder. And I wonder how many cases of skin cancer could be prevented by being more precautious.

Maybe these thoughts are not so unusual for somebody who survived cancer. Please, bear with us. Even if we have been “cured” from cancer, sometimes there are triggers that remind us of really hard times.

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Thankful Thursday #47

Thankful Thursday #47

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Depression has been kicking my butt lately. I am very thankful for our therapist, who offered me a private session yesterday (health insurance covers several private sessions in addition to the group sessions).

I was able to vent and got some advice what to focus on. Next week our group will meet for the last time, after that there will be a three-week summer break, so we also discussed what to do if things get worse during this time. This made me feel much calmer.

I am so lucky I met this therapist. He not only does his job, he really cares and tries to help us.

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Feline Friday #88| Friendly Fill-Ins

Feline Friday #88| Friendly Fill-Ins

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It’s time for Feline Friday, hosted by Sandee from Comedy Plus!

We had a few rainy days, and while I didn’t like getting wet during my walks with the dogs I immensely enjoyed the extra cuddling sessions with Jackie. Like many cats, she isn’t too fond of rain. When it comes to snuggling on the sofa, Jackie has strict rules:

1.) She always chooses me as her human pillow. I don’t know why, because for years she was clearly my husband’s cat. Maybe I am just more comfortable to lie on, because I am softer (or fat, ahem).

2.) The dogs are tolerated, but they are not allowed to move! This results in hissing fits. Cats and dogs may communicate differently, but believe me when I say the dogs know  hissing is no friendly hello.

3.) I am allowed to watch TV, but I may not touch my mobile, tablet or Laptop. When I reach for these, she makes sure she lies in a spot that makes it very difficult for me to type. Digital detox, cat style…

But of course Jackie gets away with it, we are well-trained cat staff ☺!

Friendly Fill-Ins

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-LeggedFurballs and 15andmeowing. So here we go:

1. My plans for the weekend include meeting Finn, a five year old Labrador our friend walks for a few weeks. I always enjoy being introduced to new furbabies.
2. I don’t know if I like fireworks or not. I am sure there are many better ways to spend money, and animals often are terrified by them. Not just furbabies, but wild animals and cattle as well. But they are wonderful to look at and very impressive.
3. I’m grateful I have the freedom to live like I want. Of course there are limitations, but I know I am very lucky.
4. Furbabies make(s) a house a home (well, no surprise here). I always – even as a child – preferred living in a home with pets. This didn’t change.
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Thankful Thursday #46

Thankful Thursday #46

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today I am thankful for the rain we had in the last days. The cooler weather is so much more pleasant, and nature needed it. Our dog granny enjoys the refreshing temperatures as well, and it’s so good to see her having fun when we take our daily walks. Our cat isn’t so fond of the humidity of course, but she will to have until it’s her term again 🙂

Have a wonderful day!

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Stapleless again

Stapleless again

Sam always is a sensitive und nervous dog. This was even worse last week. It was a hard time for all of us. The wounds must have itched really bad, Sam always tried to lick them. When we made him wear the cone he couldn’t reach them, but he was also very depressed and barely moved. When he didn’t wear the cone, we had to be very careful that he leaves the wounds alone and were very tense. On top of all of this, he didn’t want to take his meds, and the vet had prescribed antibiotics and pain killers… Well, at least the pain med was a syrup and easier to swallow for him.

However, the wounds healed well, and today the staples were removed. Since then Sam is much calmer and his usual self again. Let’s hope there will be no further complications.

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Cone of shame

Cone of shame

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When I think “Everything is going well, now I can finally blog about everything that’s on my mind”, something happens. In this case our Sam.

It began last week when his vasculitis started to act up, although we had treated it as usual with the prescribed ointment. Sam’s left ear bled a lot. The only way to get this under control (according to the vet) is to tie the ear to the head with a bandage for a few days so Sam doesn’t scratch it and the wound can heal. Sounds simple, but of course he tries (and often succeeds) to get the bandage off and everything has to be re-done again and again 🙄.

On Sunday morning, I let the dogs in the garden when the neighbor’s dog jumped over the fence and attacked Sam. Sam was at a disadvantage, because I had him on the leash. I wasn’t able to stop the two dogs from biting another, yelling and kicking didn’t help. It was pure chaos. It only took the neighbor’s daughter a few seconds to come over and help us by pulling away her dog, but it surely seemed longer to me. But the two of us somehow were able to end the fight. I was surprised about myself, though. While this drama was unfolding, I was calm and wasn’t afraid for myself. I just wanted to protect Sam, because it was very clear the other dog wouldn’t let him go. Dropping the leash and running away never crossed my mind. Luckily Janet wasn’t bitten, she wasn’t on a leash and just ran away into the house.

After that we noticed Sam had two bite wounds on both his upper hind legs. So we brought him to the veterinary emergency service. The lesions are not very deep and not very big, but they had to be stapled and Sam is on pain meds and antibiotics for a week. The first days he was very quiet and tired. Things have been better since yesterday evening, so I think the meds are doing their job. If everything goes according to plan, the staples will be removed on Monday. Until then we will stay in care-for-furbaby-mode. We try to let him go without the cone as much as possible, so he can eat, drink and groom. But of course this also gives him the oppotunity to lick his wounds, and we don’t want that. We have to keep a close eye on him when he is without the cone.

We talked to the neighbors, and everyone agreed that may not happen again. The neighbor’s pet liability insurance will cover our vet bills (which will be about € 400 in total).  Now we hope the wounds will continue to heal and that this was the last time something like this happened.

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Feline Friday #87| Friendly Fill-Ins

Feline Friday #87| Friendly Fill-Ins

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It’s time for Feline Friday, hosted by Sandee from Comedy Plus!

Jackie doesn’t like that I try to keep an eye on her. I can be as quiet as possible, of course she notices me. And then she looks at me like in the picture above, and I hastily back off 😃. She has trained me so well! But I won’t stop looking for her, I want to know everything is alright – several times a day!

Friendly Fill-Ins

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-LeggedFurballs and 15andmeowing. So here we go:

1. The fact that our furbabies need me motivates me to get up every morning.
2. I put salt on everything I cook. I love salt, and so I often crave french fries and chips, especially after I ate something sweet.
3. When it comes to giving our dog Sam his meds, I don’t cut corners. This is too important.
4. Never forget to appreciate the little things. This makes life so much brighter.
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