It’s time to look back on this year. Surprisingly, not everything was bad. The picture sums it up nicely: There are clouds in the sky, but you can see the sun is shining behind them and not everything is bleak.

The year started so well with our 25th wedding anniversary in January. We had a wonderful evining at the restaurant we celebrated our wedding in back in 1995. Looking back, we rembered many happy days.

In February, my husband turned 50. I’m so grateful he was able to celebrate with all of his family, this wouldn’t have been possible later in the year. Once more I was reminded of the fact that it still hurts that I didn’t become a mother, but I somehow got through this day.
We talked about Corona on this evening, but little did we know. Well, what can I say, we were very naive back then and thought this would pass quickly (insert diabolical laughter here). Sometimes it’s good not to know what the future holds.

Then Corona struck and everything changed. I spent days organising toilet paper, masks and flour… At first I felt completely overwhelmed, but later I found a way to deal with this “new normal”. This was a very important step, I learned that I’m stronger than I often give myself credit for. This realization had consequences:

First I stopped Occupational Therapy in September, later group therapy in November. I still keep in touch with the group therapist, but so far I don’t regret my decision and enjoy the free time. I’m still waiting for something to fill this time with, but for now it’s okay as it is. I’m still busy getting to know this new Me that doesn’t go to therapy. But so far I like this new Me, it goes through life with a mindful attitude and takes itself seriously without neglecting others. It sets boundaries, but it does so in a respectful way and has a big heart.
And speaking of therapy: This is the first year of many I didn’t have an inpatientent stay on the psychiatric ward. I have to admit I’m a little (well, maybe very) proud of that.

So far we and those close to our heart got through this difficult time alright. I’m very grateful for that, and I hope it stays this way.

This is my summary of 2020. It was a turbulent year, but also a time of personal growth. Note to self: Adverse conditions don’t mean you can’t succeed – this is the most important thing I learned this year.

I hope your review of 2020 isn’t too bad either!


10 thoughts on “2020

  1. No, in fact my review of 2020 isn’t too bad. In many aspects for me it was the best year in a long time and I think 2021 is going to be a lot harder and will be a lot more gross.

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    1. I’m glad your 2020 had some ups to it. Why do you think 2021 will be harder and more gross? Do you mean in terms of Covid, or for you personally with other things? x


      1. Not for me personally, harder and gross in terms of the pandemic. Where I live in Germany we have a rapid rise of deaths and many people, including people I am related to, broke the protection rules over the holidays. My brother, age 34, was infected in September and sick with Covid in October and he still is not back to his former strength and general health, so I can’t imagine a big chance that it might hit older and healthwise more vulnerable family members or other people their age with less force (my brother was considered a mild case) oder less lasting effects, in case they were exposed to the virus in similar conditions. There was a whole lot of people the age of my parents (mid 60s), travelling or breaking the distance rules all over December, so I suppose there will be a lot of people sadly seeing to funerals or LongCovid cases within the next months. The hospitals are full, some crematories report that they have to stack the coffins outside because they don’t have enough room. Plus there is a rather radical and in parts extremely right-wing Corona denying part of society over here that threatened to attack places where vaccines are given, keeps threathing politicians and medical experts and has already attacked the Robert-Koch research institute. Also the public discussion is switching more and more towards eugenics again, which for me as a disabled person is a massive warning sign (mind the German History). Mid year we might get a new Chauncellor who is sorta right-wing und utiitlaristic, too. And I dare say the combination of all these factors might indeed turn out as gross.

        Personally for me it might be a good year, at least as far as I can forsee.

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  2. It’s interesting to look back at the start of the year, when there was a little talk of Coronavirus but little did we know just how badly things would change across the globe. I’m glad you’ve got some positives to hold on to, and I hope you can appreciate and celebrate how well you’ve done, not just with the celebratory times that were difficult but with adapting to the ‘new normal’ too. I really do hope 2021 can be a little brighter and hopefully, eventually, Covid-free. Sending love and best wishes to you & yours 🎉

    Caz xx

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    1. Yes, little did we know, and I think it will take some time until the worst of the Corona-Crisis is really over.
      I hope you and yours had a good start into the new year. My husband was on call for his company, and we were just thankful he wasn’t called and we had a quiet time at home. xx

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