A big challange that I want to adress next is self discipline. I really have neglected this for the last years.
It was ok for a while not to push myself too much, because my soul had to do lots of healing. But I’m so much better now.
But it’s easier said than done, and many parts of my life are affected. From bad eating habits and chores to keeping in touch with family and friends. If something comes up, I usually can handle it, but there’s no consistency. There are things I really stick to, like cooking or walking the dogs, but at the same time I feel unfinished tasks are building up, and that worries me. I allow myself to be easily distracted by playing games or internet surfing.
Of course I have to be mindful of my physical and mental issues, but they are no excuse for not holding myself accountable.
I have to admit the first steps are hard. This starts with getting up early in the morning. But I make things harder for myself by finding a million excuses not to go to bed on time. We talked about this in the last therapy session, often I am my biggest problem. Maybe I will find out why this happens.