I’m rarely at a loss for words, but this chaos around the Coronavirus is too much right now. I continue to read your blogs, but commenting or writing is difficult for me.
I just can’t break this vicious circle of disturbing thoughts in my head.
Someday, Corona will affect somebody from our family, or friends… Who will fall ill, and how bad will it get? How long will Corona be part of our lives, and what will all of us have to sacrifice?
I know it would be good if I could stop my thoughts going round in circles, but it’s not that easy. Although my therapists are doing what they can, more than video calls isn’t possible right now. Maybe this trying time is even harder for those of us who are already dealing with mental problems. It’s not that I feel overly anxious, but the depression is really weighing me down. When the alarm goes off in the morning, I feel already tired. I have strange dreams (I take notes, because my therapist asks about them during our sessions). I can’t keep up with the chores, but I continue to look after my husband and the furbabies.
A few days ago, we brought toilet paper to our parents. We just left it at the doorstep and kept a distance. My mother had tears in her eyes because we couldn’t hug, and my heart broke for her. Modern technologies allow us to stay in touch, but watching each other on a screen is not the same than meeting in person.
Stay strong and healthy!