Speechless

Speechless

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I’m rarely at a loss for words, but this chaos around the Coronavirus is too much right now. I continue to read your blogs, but commenting or writing is difficult for me.

I just can’t break this vicious circle of disturbing thoughts in my head.

Someday, Corona will affect somebody from our family, or friends… Who will fall ill, and how bad will it get? How long will Corona be part of our lives, and what will all of us have to sacrifice?

I know it would be good if I could stop my thoughts going round in circles, but it’s not that easy. Although my therapists are doing what they can, more than video calls isn’t possible right now. Maybe this trying time is even harder for those of us who are already dealing with mental problems. It’s not that I feel overly anxious, but the depression is really weighing me down. When the alarm goes off in the morning, I feel already tired. I have strange dreams (I take notes, because my therapist asks about them during our sessions). I can’t keep up with the chores, but I continue to look after my husband and the furbabies.

A few days ago, we brought toilet paper to our parents. We just left it at the doorstep and kept a distance. My mother had tears in her eyes because we couldn’t hug, and my heart broke for her. Modern technologies allow us to stay in touch, but watching each other on a screen is not the same than meeting in person.

Stay strong and healthy!

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25 thoughts on “Speechless

  1. The whole thing has me up and down like a yo-yo. I find that exercise helps me stay sane. We do the Eldergym online in the morning and walk in the afternoon. That really helps me to feel better mentally. Stay well and hang on.

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  2. I am so sorry viola. I love you and I hope you are staying safe, I am trying to and I hope we’ll all get through this, although it is harder for those of us with mental illnesses. xoxox

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  3. It’s the small things Viola, write your family notes and leave them at the door, be grateful that you are strong and healthy. Limit your time to news and negativity. This is uncontrollable and it has to happen. Sit outside and watch the birds, other wildlife are enjoying this peaceful time. We will survive. It is hard but we are strong. Keep writing. We are here together. Get rest and keep smiling. Always here if you want to talk x

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  4. I’m very grateful to be living with my parents because I don’t think I could stand at a distance and walk away without being able to give her a hug. That’s got to be tough. As you say, technology is such a blessing and it’s hard to imagine any of this situation without it. But it also means we’re constantly exposed to information and news, and that becomes very overwhelming. Maybe limiting your exposure to coronavirus-related information/news/posts would be good, and having ample things to distract yourself and others to bring a smile to your face, things you can enjoy doing and that will soothe your brain a little. Sending lots of love, Viola. Hang in there Β β™₯ xxxx

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    1. I’ll definitely watch less Corona-News, it really doesn’t help. I wonder how not being able to socialize will affect us in the long term, and I am so glad I don’t live alone. Let’s hope that social distancing is the most effective thing to beat Coronavirus, because it surely comes with a price.
      Sending a virtual hug your way, and stay strong, Caz xx.

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  5. Viola, we listen to positive news and awareness webinars and videos, like f.e. Abraham Hicks, Edward Tolle and so many more. It’s better to stay in your center, than that your mind takes it over from you, but we also know that it is not easy…All the best for you, ViolaπŸ’—πŸ˜ΈClean Pawkisses for a Happy Easter Weekend. Stay Safe Healthy and YourselfieπŸ™πŸΎπŸ˜½πŸ’ž

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