…is not happy at the moment, because I am home alone this week. My husband and the dogs went on a fishing trip, and I know how important that is for him. It’s his way of recharging.
I am feeling anxious and insecure when I am alone for several days. I become very aware of my bad hearing, and I am afraid to miss something important. My ear needs a break, I can’t wear my hearing aid 24 hours a day. Another reason is I never lived on my own, I am just not used to it.
The nights are the worst. Mostly I fall sleep very late with the lights and TV on. My therapist once told me I shouldn’t care – whatever helps, helps – but of course I don’t sleep very well this way.
I did okay during the days. Every day I left the house to meet people. Occupational therapy, meeting a friend and having ice cream with my father kept me busy. My inner child doesn’t need much interaction, she just needs to see she is not alone in the world. I also cleaned the house, a very good thing because there was no dirt from the terrace. That made me very happy. And of course there is our cat, I have to take care of her as well.
Grown-up me thinks I am doing well and tries to stay calm. But I will be very relieved when my husband and the dogs are back.