Rising anxiety level

Rising anxiety level


My husband’s birthday party on March 2nd is approaching. I feel more anxious and tense every day, and I am getting more and more insecure if I can deal with it.

I try to distract myself – and it works for a few hours. On Sunday I went to a charity event for listed dogs (potentially dangerous dogs of certain “listed” breeds) with a friend. The weather was nice, we met friendly people, I got to understand our dog Sam a little bit better, and we just had a wonderful girl’s day out. Spontaneously we agreed that I will accompany our friend and her dog to a training session tomorrow and film everything. This will be a great day as well. Sitting on the couch thinking won’t help me, this much I know.

Next week will be busy. On his birthday my husband wants to take cake to work for his colleagues – these guys always are hungry, so I will have to bake three cakes. On the evening of the birthday we will eat at a chinese restaurant, this is our date night in Februrary. At this day I will skip OT, it would be too much.

The rest of the week will be filled with chores, shopping, OT and preperations. I hope, a little distraction will keep my anxiety at a reasonable level. Because somehow I have to pass the time and keep my inner demons at bay.



10 thoughts on “Rising anxiety level

  1. It sounds like you have a lot to keep you busy or at least preoccupied. All you have to worry about are the non-busy times. Word puzzle book? I’ve been playing card games on my tablet as a new way to occupy my mind when anxiety hits. There are a couple of ideas anyway. Good Luck!

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  2. It never does any good for other people to say “don’t worry”, so i will not say that. What i will say is that you have a lot of people in your corner who will support you if you have trouble that evening and need to retreat to your room. After all, that’s the worst thing that could happen, right? You have trouble and need to get away for a bit.

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  3. I had it on my calendar that it’s your hubby’s party tomorrow. I wanted to see how you were doing… The rising anxiety is understandable and it’s been building to this for quite a while. Don’t forget though, the party is one day. It will be here and gone before you know it, and you have handled plenty of tough times, far tougher than this, before. Do whatever works for you to manage it and get through it, but remember – you’ve got this.xxxx

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