Coming home

Coming home

Thursday Morning it was time for me to say goodbye, and fellow patients and nurses sent me home with heartfelt hugs and lots of well wishes.

Next stop was the outpatient clinic of my local hospital, because I needed a prescription for my new antidepressant. This took a few hours. Went to the pharmacy and grocery shopping, and then finally got on the bus that would bring me home.

When I opened the door, the dogs greeted me – good thing I came prepared and had brought treats. Then the cat joined us and demanded I let her out. When I opened the door for her, I noticed the yellow leaves on the ground and was confused for a moment. My brain had to process that I left for the hospital in summer, and now fall was here.

Putting my things back in the bathroom felt strange as well.

My husband came home very stressed, because his car had two flat tires. The mood got better after a good meal.

When evening came, I was absolutely done. So many feelings were swirling around in my head, I almost couldn’t deal with it. I was told this could happen. I also was told it was best to just let this pass, without fighting or holding onto these feelings. A few tears were she’d, but the storm passed.

I still haven’t realized I am home for good, but I think this will just take a few days. I don’t withdraw, I get things done, but I am not at 100 percent yet. But I don’t worry too much about this. My head still is wonderfully quiet, calm without being drowsy, alert without being panicky. I couldn’t ask for more at the moment.

8 thoughts on “Coming home

  1. Looks like you’re doing well and will continue to do better each day. You’ve got all the tools you need in your toolbox and it appears you know what tool and when you need said tool. Excellent.

    Have a fabulous day. ♥

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    1. You are right, it’s all about being able to read the map of my mind. Being home is great. I hope to settle in quickly and being able to visit your blog again more often, now that I have Wifi again.


    1. Yes, I understand myself better now and this helps a lot – my head can be a very dark and chaotic place. We were lucky as the tires were concerned, my husband just put on the winter tires on a month earlier than intended.


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