First things first…

First things first…

English is not my first language, so please be patient with me and forgive my mistakes. I love the english language and follow english blogs from all over the world, the purpose of this blog is to keep in touch with non-german bloggers. Constructive criticism and feedback are always welcome of course!

Thanks for stopping by,

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Heart issues

Heart issues

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Right now my heart is bothering me. My resting heart rate is quite high, about 90 bpm. Sometimes it feels like my heart expands and beats so strong I can feel it in the left side of my neck. Sometimes there is a stabbing or dull sensation in the left side of my chest. I never feel sick or faint, but it’s not pleasant. Light strength training is no problem, but cardio is very difficult and leads to a very high pulse rate quickly, even when moderate.

At first I just waited, I know myself, and I am aware of the fact that psychological issues can show on my body as well. But it didn’t stop. I am not able to determine a cause for these episodes.

I can think of several reasons:

a) The last adjustment of the thyroid med was to much,
b) My current anti depressant medication influences my cardiovascular system (this is a known possible side effect),
c) Psychosomatic issues,
d) Something new 😦 (I could do without this).

The problem is that I am easily dismissed by doctors because of my mental issues, even though I haven’t seen a doctor for psychosomatic symptoms for years.

On Thursday I will see my GP and have my thyroid checked. This shouldn’t be a problem, because a blood test is done every three month because of my blood sugar anyway. I have to start somewhere. Until then I try to go on with my life.

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Feline Friday #75 | Friendly Fill-Ins Week #191

Feline Friday #75 | Friendly Fill-Ins Week #191

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It’s time for Feline Friday, hosted by Sandee from Comedy Plus!

Jackie still doesn’t like the new sofa, and we don’t force her. Maybe our friend is right, she suggested Jackie doesn’t like the “new” smell on it. We’ll see how it will turn out.

In the meantime, Jackie insists on spending the nights in our bed, between our pillows. I am glad she feels safe with us. Sometimes I am afraid we could crush her between us, but it is like we are always aware of her, even while sleeping. And in the morning I enjoy waking up next to her small, warm body.

I hope Jackie will someday join us on the new sofa, but until then I will gladly take our nightly snuggle sessions.

Friendly Fill-Ins

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-LeggedFurballs and 15andmeowing. So here we go:

1. I could not have my coffee without milk. It’s to hard on my stomach if I drink coffee without it.

2. A simple pleasure I enjoy is having coffee in bed every morning.

3. If I could change one thing about myself, it would be stopping eating too much.

4. Honesty is hard to find these days.

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Thankful Thursday #32

Thankful Thursday #32

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

Today I am just thankful for this day. The weather was so nice, sunny and relatively mild with a hint of spring in the air. The fifth preliminary talk with my new therapist went well, and we now have the paperwork ready, so we can send everything to health insurance. If everything goes well, I will start group therapy in about four weeks.

After that I went to my usual Thursday OT relaxation group, and it was exactly was I needed, because my neck and shoulders have been very tense and achy for the last days. After one and a half hour of PMR the pain was gone, and I was so relieved.

My pack was happy to see me, and now I am sitting on the couch  chilling. So what’s not to love about this day 🙂 ?

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Paperwork

Paperwork

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Chores have to take a back seat this week. I want to do our tax return soon, and I won’t to waste time looking for insurance policies then.

Sadly, I still don’t have energy for everything I want to do. So getting my priorities straight is important. Right now, the house doesn’t have do be presentable, so it’s no big deal if I concentrate on something different.

It’s not new that I have to be careful with my energy, but my attitude has changed. A few months ago this really upset me, today I am more relaxed and think “So what?!” This makes everything so much easier. And in my opinion it’s always better to make a conscious decision, in this case “This week I focus on X, next week Y is my priority.” That makes me feel like I have at least control over some parts of my life.

Tomorrow I can go and talk to my new therapist with a clear head, because I finished the paperwork.

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Wedding anniversary dinner

Wedding anniversary dinner

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I am still very thankful for the dinner voucher my parents gave us for our 25th wedding anniversary. At first I wasn’t sure how it would feel to go back to the place where we celebrated our wedding: So much has happened in the last years, and there where also hard times.

I needn’t have worried, like I so often do. We talked about the bad things, but about the good times as well. Some people who celebrated with us back then are not in our life anymore, they died or we lost touch, but we remembered them anyway. After our wedding 25 years ago I drove to the restaurant with our witness, because she didn’t know the way – this time we were led by our navigation system. We didn’t raise children, but our house is full of live.

It’s so nice the good outweighs the bad after all the time.

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Feline Friday #74 | Friendly Fill-Ins Week #190

Feline Friday #74 | Friendly Fill-Ins Week #190

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It’s time for Feline Friday, hosted by Sandee from Comedy Plus!

When Jackie was younger, she loved to greet us sitting on the garage when we came home, especially when it was dark. After saying hello, she liked to jump down on the car that was standing in front of the garage… This wasn’t so good for the car’s surface, of course! But Jackie was so quick, we couldn’t stop her. She is more careful now, but you can still see the scratches on my husband’s car 🙂

Friendly Fill-Ins

I again participate in the Friendly Fill-Ins, hosted by Four-LeggedFurballs and 15andmeowing. So here we go:

1. When I am with my husband and my furbabies, I always feel loved and safe.
2. I want to be there for my loved ones, two- and fourlegged.
3. No one knows me better than my husband, my parents and the furbabies.
4. That our home is a safe place for all of us is a thought that crosses my mind often.
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Thankful Thursday #31

Thankful Thursday #31

Thankful Thursday Blog Hop

The Thankful Thursday Blog Hop is hosted by Brian from Brian’s Home. He encourages us to say what we are thankful for today.

First, here is a picture of our new sofa. I wrote about it last week on Thankful Thursday:

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When it is folded out, it is big enough for all of us. It’s wonderful to have that much space. Jackie is still upset because we changed something in her living room, but humans and dogs love it!

But I degress. Today I am very thankful for my new therapist. He is willing to argue with health insurance, so that the costs of the group therapy will be covered. Before I join the group, I have single therapy sessions with him. Our talks helped me to see that I may have problems, but I also have strength in me and can fight back. I am very thankful for that!

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